-udpated 2/12/2012-
I’ve decided that, due to the increasing number of men appearing back in my life, I need to sort of explain who they all are and such. So, here is a brief explanation of the “cast” in order of appearance.
John: from way back when I first started this blog. This boy and I have been friends since kindergarten, he’s 4 years older than me and has been in love with me for most of that time.when I decided I felt the same, he left and went to Idaho for 8 months and broke my heart. When he came back, we tried to date but I didn’t feel the same. We didn’t talk for a year and a half. Now we are again and he still loves me but he’s just a friend in my eyes.
Jonathan: The Mexican. Haha. We dated off and on my junior year. He’s convinced he loves me but he’s the worlds biggest player. He moved to California this summer and we just started texting again after months of not talking.
Ryan: I adore this boy. We dated in 6th grade, 8th, 9th, and the beginning of senior year (that’s when I first start talking about him here.) before Travis and I. He’s a goof ball, hilarious and completely immature. The serious side comes out when we are alone…sometimes.When Travis and I broke up, he came back from basics and we started talking again. We had a really close night on the 24th of October and wanted to be more than friends but we haven’t talked about it since. [edit;;] We talked, went to a party together after Travis and I got back together, he pretty much poured his heart out. I probably led him on for the wrong reasons but he had his chance with me again and didn’t take it. So we still talk but Travis is the only one for me.
Dillon: My first super serious relationship the summer between junior and senior year. He’s actually my step cousin, but we liked each other before my aunt and his dad got married. He randomly decided one lovely July day that he didn’t love me anymore. I was destroyed.this later lead to problems between Travis and I at the beginning because I had trust issues and a wall up from what dillon did to me. We hadn’t talked much during that time. When travis and I broke up, I started texting him again. He’s got a girlfriend and the day he started basic training he told me he still loved me, missed me, and promise to write me letters. I know he’s a player, but its hard not to want to believe him all over again. [edit;;] I stopped talking to him when Travis and I got back together. He’s a whoreish douche bag and I would love to punch him in the face.
Travis: the love of my life. We dated December 29th 2010, til September 11th, 2011. He was a first for literally everything. I moved in with him in June. We were gonna get engaged after we’d been dating a year. It was pretty much it. But something happened, which I still don’t totally understand and he ended things (though 5days before he’d practically proposed). Broken hearted doesn’t even begin to describe it. we still talk, he’s sweet sometimes and an ass the rest of it. Hes convinced himself he doesnt love me anymore but hes not looking for anyone else. We had/have a friends with benefits thing going on which I hate but I’m hoping it will make him want me back. He is the only one I will ever love. When you are lucky enough to get that fairy tale romance and it suddenly ends, you’ll spend the rest of your life, trying to put back together the pieces. [edit;;] We are back together as of 12/5/11. Things are back to the way they used to be before things turned sour. He regrets leaving me and just…things are perfect. I’ll leave it at that. (: Just kidding. I got dumped again on 2/8/12. Totally my fault. I deserved it. I’m not trying as hard to get him back this time though. Too numb. I’m sure it’ll kick in a month or two. I love him, I’m just tired of being given up on.
Matt: The best guy friend. Worked with him and cnr while he’s was dating my friend Dana. He got Ryan and I together again, then helped with Travis, who is his cousin. Travis was convinced he liked me the whole time we were dating. We havent talked much in the past month.
John-kid: not to be confused with John. We met via myyearbook in October. He’s actually my high school choir teachers son. he was just a best guy friend I could tell anything to but he recently told me he loved me and kissed me…yesterday actually. So now I’m not sure how I feel about him. I wont date him as long as I’m still in love with Travis because I care to much about him to do that. and since I’ll always be in love with Travis, I will never date him. [edit;;]Although I feel like a complete jerk for this, I pretty much stopped texting John-kid back when Travis and I got back together. I think he’s pretty much moved on now though.
That’s all for now! All blog posts are tagged with the guys they refer to even when it just says “him”. Check out the archives/tags to find posts on these gentlemen. (:
